Coming home from work one evening last week, I felt tired. I had a busy, long day at work thanks to my compressed hours. This gives me a day at home with my toddler, son and the pleasure of collecting my daughter from school. She looks forward to this day, as do I. I secretly wish I could collect her every day and splash in puddles and kick leaves as we walk home.
As I was on the train, I thought of the number of tasks I wanted to complete that evening. Some were practical and some were personal; my make up business, blog and administration as part of worship ministry.
I wondered what it must be like to lead a more simple life. No offence at all to anyone who does – in fact I am almost envious of those who have more spare time than me. Seriously though, I pondered on my motives for always striving and on why I feel uneasy when I cannot tick a task off of my to do list. In the grand scheme of things life continues as usual, whether I update my business page or not, whether I respond immediately to people who comment on my blog or not.
According to my mother, as a child I wanted to play with everything at nursery and I barely stopped to rest between riding the bike, playing with the sand and water and so forth.
This naturally transferred into my teenage and adult life. I was the organiser of my friends, the one who booked our holidays and arranged our daily itinerary.
I guess being a “go, go, go” person has it’s benefits, you get tasks done and fast but how often do you feel resentful or hard done by?
I choose to take on all that I do for a number of reasons. Some are quite deep rooted and need to be dealt with but I will discuss this at another time.
How do you view yourself?
Are you happy to be “at this place?”