Whilst we may view ourselves (the majority of us) as honourable citizens, are we truly aware of what we are capable of? It is all too easy to judge others for their life choices and situations they have found themselves in. We can separate ourselves from others due to their “bad” nature and I truly believe some people are “bad”. I would like to think they are unwell or deranged because it would then give reason for their inexplicable behaviour, however I am learning people often do because they can. It is as simple as that. The opportunity presents itself and they take it.
We have a point at which we can be pushed too far. After that point, there is no telling what you could do: scream out, throw objects, run away (as in go A.W.O.L), have a breakdown. Situations can bring out a part of us that we did not need even know existed. A part that has a need to protect oneself and our loved ones. The fact that we do not know ourselves as much as we think, can be rather frightening and intriguing at the same time.
Whilst at college, in the late 1990’s a man walked by and muttered something so I responded then he spat at me. However, at that point I lost all sense of who I was, where I was, what I was carrying. I ran after the man (to do what you may ask) and two passers by stopped me and held me down. I recall shouting for them to “let me go” but they held me until the man had long gone. Looking back they were a godsend as who knows what I would have done or indeed the man I ran after.
Naturally I am introverted and constantly aware of my surroundings and not making a scene. In the situation above I allowed my emotions to rule and all logic thinking went right out of the window. When a person is highly emotional, angry and hurt it is difficult to reason with them as at that moment they are completely consumed by the circumstances.
I conclude that we are capable of far more than we think we are. It is only love and grace that refrains us from being the person that we choose to judge for their way of life.
What have you said/done that is out of character? How did this make you feel?
How much do you think you know yourself?